Who is Phaedrus? He explores interior frontiers where we meet to discover possibilities of ourselves... He is in the shadows, in the sounds, in the strains of music filtering through, in the past and somewhere in a distant time to be...
Wednesday, May 13, 2020
PANDEMIC PANIC: A VICTIM OF LOCKDOWN
From the confines of my apartment I would venture out every 10 to 12 days to buy supplies from the market.
At first, I thought this was a wonderful time to get work done, and for a while I was able to convince myself that this was not much different from my life as a loner. But I was discovering that I had so many friends that I could see, have dinner or brunch with, or go to a coffee house to write in the presence of very creative people who were using places like Reggio's as a haven for creative work and stimulating discussions...or pop into the Morgan Library, the Whitney, The Russian Tea Room, or see a show or opera almost spontaneously when I needed a boost to my perspective on life.
That creative milieu was removed overnight, and it appeared that no one had calculated the consequences of such an unprecedented, catastrophic compromise.
I began to understand that I was in a state of shock, withdrawal, and depression. The day lost its shape, and I lost all sense of day and night. I could not sleep. All sense of a sleep cycle was lost. I was becoming more and more depressed because all this luxury of time on my hands was not being converted into any productive activity. I was starting to lose it...
I was in LOCKDOWN... I was in SOLITARY CONFINEMENT, UNDER HOUSE ARREST, with all these talking heads on television who seemed to bicker back and forth on nothing of consequence whatsoever, except to remind us of what we could NOT do... that we were being watched... KEEP YOUR DISTANCE... WEAR YOUR FACEMASK! STAY INSIDE!... THEY seemed to be making "lists of whose naughty and nice" ... but it wasn't Santa... it was Governors and Mayors and bureaucrats who believed they had the power to make laws and conduct invasive surveillance without our consent... and then there emerged a sense of despair of media in collusion with so-called government... so that it seemed there was no end in sight... there appeared to be some perverted delight that lockdown was essential and must continue for "because it's good for you."
April tumbled end-over-end, out of control... my lack of sleep had filled my brain with the fog of despair. Easter loomed and passed as a non-event. Early spring days were filled with sunlight, with passing storms and sometimes very strong winds, even a tornado warning for NYC.
As May approached, my lack of sleep had become alarming. I was a victim of LOCKDOWN. And I knew I was not alone. Every email and message proclaimed everything was OK... and so did I also put on an air of survival mode mentality. But we all knew and know that everything was not well. The globe has entered an unprecedented era, far worse than the GREAT DEPRESSION...Worse because it has been a government-imposed shutdown based on faulty data and flawed projections.
Night and day merged without distinctive boundaries. With all this personal freedom of time on my hands, nothing was being accomplished. The end of April fizzled into May and I experienced PANDEMIC PANIC--- the LOCKDOWN has become an insurmountable hurdle... all imposed from within through the destructive energy of isolation.
I had nowhere to go. "Don't bother us unless you have COV-19--- we can't be distracted unless you are essential... " You see, some some of us are essential, but the rest are not, so those lives don't really matter. "Since you're not essential, don't bother us until we say it's okay to come out."
I realized that I had begun to see myself as a victim, and there appeared to be no way out. I needed to find THE WAY.... and I thought of Neil Diamond's song THE WAY... and his plaintiff face out: "I need to find...I need to find...I need to find..."
FADE OUT
PRE-PANDEMIA: RESEARCH AS LIVED EXPERIENCE
Lisa called to ask if I was uncomfortable with her coming since there were these rumors of a serious outbreak of a new virus. Yet, Dr. Anthony Fauci of the CDC had recently commented it was not something to be too concerned about---"not a major threat"--- and Nancy Pelosi was encouraging everyone to go to China Town. I remember several viruses from the past, including the Pandemic of 1968 which peaked in 1969 during the Woodstock Festival, so I was not worried that things were so serious that Lisa should change her plans to visit.
On the day she was scheduled to arrive, March 9th, the NYU School of Psychology was hosting Ted Coons' 90 Year Festschrift and I was scheduled to present. As I entered NYU's King Juan Carlos Center, the venue that was hosting Dr. Coons' Festschrift, I detected an air of concern among those who had traveled to be present to honor this great scholar, researcher, and educator. Participants declined to shake hands and bumped elbows instead, although Ted, unfazed, continue to shake hands and hug former students and colleagues.
| West Side Story (Spring 2020) Projection Amplifies Dramatic Tension |
| IMPACT Production: Image Echoes stretch sense of space |
Were Wagner alive today, he would undoubtedly be a film director in order to exert strict control over every artistic element.
| ROTATION, multimedia opera |
IMPACT (Interactive Multimedia Performing Arts Collaborative Technology) was a summer workshop at NYU from 2007-2017 that along with collaborators Tom Beyer, Youngmi Ha, Chianan Yen, and Deborah Damast, I founded to initiate college level students to the emerging technologies that were revolutionizing the arts in ways that underscored collaboration, spontaneity and immediacy. Indeed, I often referred to this new sensibility as the theatre of immediacy. We utilized the concept of Arts Collectives from the 60s-70s to congregate students into collective groups utilizing different disciplines and backgrounds to collaborate by bringing together their unique talents and skills to create and share new work.
Dr. Lisa Naugle became a part of IMPACT as the Director of Dance and Movement not long after the workshop came into being. I had the honor of chairing her dissertation research committee at NYU, and we had begun collaborative projects with other colleagues as early as 1995, when we were using dial-up modems to connect with the Internet.
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| Tom Beyer, Media and Technical Collaborator |
| Projection of different angles enhance presence |
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| IF TIME REMEMBERS, prepared video with live projections |
As artists, we were internalizing and processing our experience: we were the embodiment of our research. Thus each successive year and collaboration built upon the previous experiments and provided the means to leap forward by continually adding to and evolving the previous concepts and techniques into new experiments. Every season of IMPACT was a new experiment,
| ROTATION, multimedia opera multiple screens |
We experimented with the simultaneous running of two independent videos while incorporating live projections of performances, multiple screens, enhanced directional sound, connecting independent spaces in simultaneous distance performances.
During these years, we introduced so many young students from around the world, that we discovered (during our debriefing of their experiences on the final day) that perhaps the most important outcome for the participants in this collaborative process was they had sustained a transformative life-changing experience.
Our creative research as lived experience project of March 7-9 concluded with attending the preview of a stunning new production of Sondheim's classic, COMPANY, that starred Patti Lupone, who brought down the house with "Here's to the Ladies Who Lunch." The production reversed the genders of the original production so that the major premise was of a woman in her 30s who couldn't commit to marriage. I found this production more exciting and inspiring than the original 1970 production. This new production never happened. Shortly after Lisa returned to California on March 10th, Broadway went dark and the COV-19 PANDEMIC pummeled New York City into a lockdown.
Monday, May 11, 2020
VIOLA ENLUARADA, CAPOEIRA & A PANDEMIC

performance in another window, while you read this poem and its translation (courtesy Celina).
Marcos Valle- "Viola Enluarada"
a mão que toca o violão
In the hand that plays the guitarSe for preciso faz a guerra
if needed [(it) notes the warMata o mundo, fere a terra
kills the world, hurts the earthNa voz que canta uma canção
In the voice that sings a song,Se for preciso canta o hino if needed, (it) sings the anthem,Louva à morte
praises deathNo sertão é como espada
in the countryside, it’s like a sword,Viola e noite enluarada
moonlight viola, moonlight nightEsperança de vingança hope of revenge.No mesmo pé que dança o samba In the same foot that dances the sambaSe preciso vai à luta if needed, (it) goes to fightCapoeira
CapoeiraQuem tem de noite a companheira
(the one) who lies, at night, his companion (fem.)Sabe que a paz é passageira
knows that peace is transitory
Prá defendê-la se levanta
To defend her (peace/companion)E grita: Eu vou!
(it) stands up and shouts: I go (I will)Mão, violão, canção, espada
Hand, Guitar, Song, SwordE viola enluarada
and Moonlightened ViolaPelo campo, e cidade
through the country-side and the cityPorta bandeira, capoeira
Porta bandeira, capoeiraDesfilando vão cantando
in the parade (refers to carnival) they sing
Liberdade
Freedom
Liberdade, liberdade…
Freedom, Freedom
Sunday, April 26, 2020
RON MAZUREK: REMEMBERING THE JOURNEY
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| Ron Mazurek (photo provided by Tom Beyer) |
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| Affectionately, this is known as Dinu Ghezzo & Friends |
Ron was also a mentor to us all through his quiet presence that commanded our deepest respect. He led by example, and while quietly succinct, he had a way of disarming tense moments, and understanding that every challenge was followed by a resolution. He was a Professor at Bergen Community College, where he developed a state of the art electronic music studio. It happened that he mentored my son, John Russell Gilbert, who remembers that "he showed me how to make my musical visions a reality.”
The most enduring characteristic of Ron’s character was his enthusiastic efficiency and successful completion of tasks and projects. Once completed, Ron would always quickly move forward to yet another project. His love of electronic music and composition was undeniable. He developed the first electronic music curriculum, electronic lab, and A.A.S. degree at Bergen Community College.
...Linda A. Marcel, Ed.D. Chair of Music, Bergen Community College 2009 - 2012
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| Ron On Tour (photo provided by Tom Beyer) |
I'm remembering our many journeys, always during Spring Break as Maestro Dinu would assemble the next adventure. For me, it was a cultural, musical, and spiritual awakening. In this particular Instance we toured Italy, beginning in Florence, then meandering across Italy to the Adriatic coast and Perugia, and finally the beautiful town of Bari. I remember having breakfast overlooking the Adriatic Sea and conjuring the many adventures that had brought us together in so many diverse settings...getting lost in Oldenburg, getting robbed by gypsies in Poland, getting my pockets picked in Berlin, staring down a gypsy thief in Romania, and ultimately getting mugged along with Lisa in Romania... I began to formulate an adventure story that coincided with these many travels. Through it all, Ron was stoic, and his presence and enduring smile was a comfort to all.
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| Photos by Lisa Naugle |
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| Photo provided by Tom Beyer |
Claiming the space meant installing equipment, a sound system, projection surfaces, and making sure we had ample space for the dancers. There was never time for rehearsals, only speculation of what we would do.
The 21st Century seemed to be spilling over barriers of the past, and incorporating it into the fabric of Now. The Church in Bari was definitely an iconic moment, and one that Ron relished. I remember as I watched Ron with his equipment arranged on the stage like a small, intimate electronic studio that we were were privileged to share as a singular awareness of music being born in the moment.
His works are honest, and searching. Each composition lifted him to new discoveries, new levels.
As I think to where I am now, I think the remembrance of him, sitting at his portable studio in a church centuries old, may be the reason that I am now returning to a portable rack systems of modules where I can improvise anywhere. I think this because Ron embodied the past, and his studio embraced the Apse of the Church almost like an ancient relic waiting to be resurrected.
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| Ron with his "studio" in the apse of the Church in Bari (Photo provided by Tom Beyer) |
When Ron passed, he was in class at Lehman College and someone messaged me saying that he had collapsed in class, and they were waiting for an ambulance. I had no idea what was going on, and no sense of his condition. But he died instantly there in the classroom setting he loved so much, with the students that he loved so much. The sense of loss was devastating.
We went to his funeral in New Jersey. Tom Beyer wrote:
I still hear Ron's words of wisdom as I move through my day and I relish the long, late night conversations we had about all manner of things while on tour together. But it is rare when one finds another that you can communicate with, without using words. That was my experience with Ron, off stage as well as on. I hope you will all, once again, hear the words he said to you in the numerous conversations you have all had with him. But more importantly sense his presence and feel him helping to guide you through life "From A bowve" I will sorely miss my roommate and Geloto buddy.The words above were the notes to Tom's video tribute From Abowve.
My thanks to all those that I bothered in trying to get them to help me remember Ron, and in remembering, remember our mutual journeys, even now.
Friday, April 10, 2020
RETURN OF THE PUTNEY
| PUTNEY VCS |
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| SYNTRX (ERICA INSTRUMENTS) |
Monday, March 16, 2020
DETOUR~ THE ROAD NOT TRAVELLED
There was tremendous negative energy in the air a few days ago. It started peaking on Thursday, March 12... it was independent of CRV-19, but fear of the virus contributed to heightened anxiety... anger and fear. I had experienced a fantastic positive day on Wednesday.. which had followed Dr. Lisa Naugle of UCI departing after a two-day intensive that we could only describe as research... Researching Lived Experience.
One primary object of research was the new multimedia production of West Side Story. The production was using media to construct the dramatic environment, using still images, prepared video, and live video. These were techniques we had experimented in our international workshop IMPACT for ten years.
Also in that context, under IMPACT PRESENTS, three of my theatre pieces utilized these techniques: IF TIME REMEMBERS (2014), ROTATION (2015), and IF THIS BE MADNESS (2016).
The works mentioned are works remounted from the past with new material added and production techniques using extended media and process. My research with Lisa those few days in March hasn't produced any mutual collaboration, inspires and informs my work going forward.










